I think that the first moments of transgression, implicitly of prohibition, occur during childhood. When you are a child you’re always told what to do, how to behave, what cloths to wear; you are also told to watch your manners, to keep a civilized attitude towards everything. You just cannot act freely, according to your own judgment. Being a child you have to learn to temper your enthusiasm and that means to grow up, little by little, so that in the end you will be considered a responsible and honourable man that can fit in to the society of adults. So it’s obvious that most of your initiatives are adjusted by your parents, which act as the austere doorkeepers of your everyday life. They are the ones who permit or interdict you all sorts of things that you find, in most cases, interesting and appealing. You are faced for the first time with the prohibition and you start fighting it. For example, you tear your clothes, you refuse to eat all that is laid in front of you, on the table, you stop doing your homework, you go to bed very late, you spit and you swear, you annoy your teachers, you beat your colleagues, you cry for no reason and so on and so forth. You may do all these more or less consciously because you are still a child, but you transgress the interdiction, the word of your parents, the authority of your school teachers or maybe that of your older brother or sister. It’s not easy for you to comprehend all these interdictions but you begin to adapt to rules, to feel up or interrogate your limits, to think twice before you say or do something. You begin the difficult and disturbing process of maturation. But what’s really complicated reveals with all its bitterness in the immediate period after childhood, that is adolescence, and then things start to cause you a great deal of problems. Adolescence is physical hardship and psychological toil; firstly your body begins to grudge your inner child, the modifications you’re going through are uncommonly exciting, you transgress the borders of your childhood and discover some capricious wanting for the girl in front of you, and of course that you don’t know what to do; secondly this transgression is a sexual one, you don’t understand how to heal with it and you respond to it in a rebellious way; you still want to play but somehow not alone any more. School and parents now seem the ultimate figures of severity and stubbornness, you just cannot relate comfortably on them so again you fight them away. You, the adolescent, know more and better than them but what’s more surprising is that no one really understands you. You soon are going to find out that more interdictions lie before you like mine bombs waiting for someone courageous enough to trigger them. You usually don’t hesitate in these circumstances, it’s not your kind, so you unleash the fire with its painfully baptism. In effect you drink, you miss school, you cheat and you lie, you pretend to know everything, you listen to heavy music, you break an enormous quantity of rules and it’s possible not to feel any remorse what so ever. Adolescence seems to be the perfect period of infringement but of course you don’t know for sure that, in most cases you are bound to act like that, it feels natural. Then transgression of the interdiction may be something totally natural for men to do. All our life we actually break and adapt to rules, we trespass and step back from limits; we transgress prohibitions and bow our heads in front of them. We could say that our life is a period of probation.

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