Okay, I'm in a career crisis. Lately, I have been wanting to really involve myself in professional anthropology. By professional, I mean academics and scholarship. I feel it would be regretful in my part if I would not try. I'm done with my being a copyleftist (not a slave to copyrights) and literary anarchist (not believing in conventions in academic writing). I've done it, and it has brought me nothing and to nowhere. Maybe it's time to humble myself and conform.
Culinary is interesting, but I have found out that making souffle or searing foie gras everyday is turning me into a mindless robot that breathes. I miss the freedom in thinking or the challenge in wondering. I'm not free at all to add cilantro in something french or shrimp paste in something Italian. I think I'm in a wrong field of professional endeavor. Since I'm a chef who has an academic background and interest in anthropology, maybe I can do both and lead a fulfilling life.
I'm looking to go back to graduate school in Europe-- anywhere in Europe. American universities are expensive, stingy, and yes, still "postmodern," "poststructuralist," and "postcolonial." I also need to find a "cheffing" job first, so I can support my studies. Maybe I can work at a university dining for free tuition fees. I'm interested in the combination of anthropology, sociology, economics, development, psychology, biology, mathematics, and neuroscience to come up with a study about corruption that can be actually applied from a micro to a macro-scale to lessen or eradicate corruption. It will be a life-long project.
Europe also makes sense because it's tough to study corruption in the US, fieldwork-wise, since it's not really an alarming phenomenon here. A comparative study between Southeast Asia and Eastern Europe sounds interesting. Besides, several grants from financial and governmental institutions are given to study corruption in those regions mentioned. I know I'm not a professor material, so I'm eyeing to involve myself in applied development and public policy instead.
Now, do you have any pieces of advice regarding my plans and interests or recommendations on the right European universities I should look into, considering my academic/professional goal? I hope you do. Thanks a bunch!